I have had three babies. All have been breastfed to a certain extent.
I think I looked at her as a manual, just do what the book says and it should work. Once I quit trying and realized that I didn't fail, my body didn't work right in this case. Then I could look at her and love her. I saw her cues of when she wanted to eat and what she needed. I took the time to look in her eyes and to see that she was a beautiful daughter and gift from God.
the evil supplementer. The supplementer is a contraption you load with formula and tape it to yourself to feed the baby. It is supposed to stimulate your own milk production too. I used that about 2 months and then the hassle was too much. I nursed Lilly for 6 months total. I still was supplementing with more formula than my own milk that entire time. I know I tried my hardest and that I did what I could.
All my kids are breastfed. All my kids at bottle fed. All my kids are loved.